Applying for stuff: #etisiphobia

Except I don't, take the following studio Voltaire thing, I'll think about it, I'll read about it, I may tell someone, I'll panic about it, I'll tell myself the day after the deadline it wasn't for me, whilst secretly feeling a failure.

Only this time I'm blogging about it, cry for help or exhibitionist shame?

PS Am I the only artist never to have applied to anything? And if so, any counselling services that deal with that? 

PS 2 I did apply to staedelschule and RA, so not completely useless