From creating a new word To hustling for SSRI

Such is the power of the internet.

So I spend for like, ever, to create a new word:

 And just when I try to make sure I'm the first to do so (which I am, credit, period), I  half smile at the ironic discovery of how google suggests to me to look up the following

Yes, people of various and fluid genders (boys and girls sounds better but I won't compromise politics for beauty), FEAR OF FAILURE

And if you're wondering:

Tragic, huh?

Anyone got a stash of SSRI somewhere?

PS my artist career depends on it, apparently, making art is just not enough, people have to know I do

Applying for stuff: #etisiphobia

Except I don't, take the following studio Voltaire thing, I'll think about it, I'll read about it, I may tell someone, I'll panic about it, I'll tell myself the day after the deadline it wasn't for me, whilst secretly feeling a failure.

Only this time I'm blogging about it, cry for help or exhibitionist shame?

PS Am I the only artist never to have applied to anything? And if so, any counselling services that deal with that? 

PS 2 I did apply to staedelschule and RA, so not completely useless

No Ruddy Picnic

They say rock stars start their day in the afternoon. No Bloody picnic.

Happy Ending

Not happy, obvs, as I just managed to get out of unproductive studio (unsurprising, not having launched TheSalon properly) to make it to the Kiosk cos I still have faith, but I know I'll have to drag myself to the gym, aided by probably being too late for a beer. 

Warning:

DoubleDepresso also affects writing quality

ironY

IronY is writing a blog about the highs & lows of 2 little artists and being too double depresso to even write

WTF or No Mad

Ok, like, that's not what it's why. Why the eff am I double depresso after having come up with No Mad Gallery with el Drew.... 

I know! 

It's the pressure

Geddit?

Anyway, erm, maybe Artist Run Space ARS is too pretentious. Argh now I'm Affogato 

Little voice inside me is saying just do it.... Louder voice also proposing artists combos already

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